May 28th

May 28. My last day of high school. Life is truly not long enough. I can remember freshmen year thinking that in 4 year I would be graduating. It is now almost here.

The end is bittersweet.

I am happy to start the next chapter in my life. I am going to be a counselor at a camp in California! I really want to learn how to surf. I just hope that there is minimal drama & I apply sunscreen enough. Afterwards - college. I found the perfect college and I am pumped to meet new friends.

I am also ready for a new set of friends. I love my current friends but I've changed. I want to discuss collegial ideas. I have realized that I am a better friend to them than they are to me. It stinks but hopefully I will find friends that appreciate me as much as I appreciate them.

I am sad because these are people who I have grown up with. Some of them I have know for 12 plus years! The sad reality is that I won't see some of my classmates after graduation. Some of them won't come to reunions and others won't have facebooks. In addition, I will be going away for college so I won't be able to see my friends on weekends.

From the list the positives outweigh that negatives but I will definitely be wearing waterproof mascara on May 28th.

Lots of love,

Courtney

I never expected how much change I would encounter this year. I feel myself becoming somewhat wiser and start to value life.

We take life for granted. Too often we go through our lives as spectators. We watch ourselves and do whatever seems expected of us. We never take control and live... really live. We are afraid to do things that most consider weird. As I look back on my 18 years I am shocked that I have never took the chance to do something that scared me. 18 years is a long time but I have been afraid of rejection.

This ends now. I am going to sing to the radio in my car. I am going to wear what I want. I am going to find the beauty in every setting. I am going to truly live.

As I end this post. I hope that when I read this in the future I am still truly living.

Loving Each New Day,

Courtney